I know a place where no ones lost, I know a place where no one cries.

jessisbest57 @ 2004-10-19T05:39:00

2004-10-19T12:48:12Z

it was yesterday...me erica and renda walked home in the pouring rain it was pretty fun and we were stomping in puddles frolicking in the rain...then when we finally reached our destination (my house) erica decides to go skinny dipping in my pool...hahaha ya shes funny then we got really bored so erica decides to paint her nose with nail polish so then i was like hey can i help then shes like sure! so i started painting her whole face and then when she was done she painted mine then we painted rendas...haha after that we went into the bathroom to scrub it off and my mom came in and she shit a brick i swear shes like thats the stupidest thing ive ever seen you three do hahaha and my moms like thats not going to come off....then me and erica were like RENDA!!! haha becuase she told us it would come off then we were literally scrubing our face for like an hour well erica and renda did but mine came off right away so when ericas wouldnt come off she just hopped in the shower for like an hour haha then after that whole fiasco we went out to dinner at la palapa....

ill paste pictures of our faces soon....

S.I.D.S
M T M<3

jessisbest57 @ 2004-10-14T15:50:00

2004-10-14T22:52:12Z

:: Stainless heart that never speaks, reads like a story never sold. What if you just forgot, what you were told? you can't replace, you can't retract, you can't forget to get whats back. And the rain keeps falling down. And the rain keeps falling upon my face. I look in my shattered mirror. Pieces of me is all I see. Shattered, broken and misplaced. What do I have to say? I'm just another sububarn heartache, blending to waste away ::

::dont make it look so pretty::

2004-10-13T13:51:19Z

hey guys sorry i havnt wrote in forever...i dont know everyone has been changing lately and its not a good change but hey ill get over it...but im excited im going to the desert this weekend...aww its going to be so fun frikkin A haha ericas going court is going i think spring and hopefully frikkin sara goes!! its going to be so great! can you say ....PPPAAAAARRRTTAAAYY! haha yessss im so excited woot woot well anyway are game got canceled last saturday and i was so mad! hoyl crap im still mad but whatever...

quit the drama

okay ya ill write more later

I LOVE U ERICA!

*ghckghvuyk*

i love christopher todd herrera<3

jessisbest57 @ 2004-10-04T16:45:00

2004-10-04T23:52:18Z

hey today was awkward.... i went to the doctor and i have this huge knot on the back of my head which isnt normal...and it could be a tumor...which can lead to cancer...so i dont know whats going to happen...i got blood drawn so they can figure out if somethings wrong...but i had to get a hepititis a shot and a PPD shot and i got blood drawn from both arms because they couldnt find the vein cuz i guess they are really small....but other wise it was alrite...

well i miss my friends...i miss sara...i miss erica...i miss renda...i miss spring...i miss court...i miss jen....i miss kayla...i miss chris,.....but the person i miss the most...is ashley inverso...wow its really sad how mea dn her used to be the best of friends and now that shes gone weve faded so far apart it scares me..but i miss her...i want her to come home...

jessisbest57 @ 2004-10-02T15:10:00

2004-10-02T22:17:28Z

sorry i havnt wrote in like 10 years again i have just been caught up in school work and sports...today is saturday and we had a soccer game which we won 3-2 woot woot!ugh but i almost got a red card cuz i yelled at a girl for grabbing my arm and like totally pushing me out of the way so she could get the ball...and it was in the box also.and i was like"DONT FUCKIN PUSH ME" and the ref herard me and freaked out and like the ref was being a dick and i told him that she like grabbed my arm and hes like did i ask for your comment? and i was like geez asshole...lol but whatever then later emily got a handball and it was to block her face from being hit and he claled it a hand ball...and then right after that this girl like touched the ball with her hand like stopped it and like i was like"hand ball!" and he pulled em to the sie and was like dont question my calls...and like yelled at me so i was liek whateverrrr...then when it was half time he pulled em to the side and was like " i advise you to keep your mouth shut or your gonna get a red card and going to be benched" i was like okay...ew whatever i dont even care hes stupid...but anyways! yesterday was really fun i got to hang out with a lot of people....spring,court,erica,sara,renda,emily,chris,kelley,jon,kenall.leslie,these 2 fags,um and more but we saw the forgotten...it was freaken scary thats all i havce to say...awww and poor emily was crying!! and she slept with her mom...awww lol but ya im gonna go take a shower or seomthing....then i might go out to dinner with mi familia. talk to you all later

leave love<3

::jess::

**jdhc;uidncfude;f**

i love christopher todd herrera

and erica noel berger..aww yes

jessisbest57 @ 2004-09-24T15:22:00

2004-09-24T22:31:23Z

god i never new how alone i could really feel this is the most ive ever cried...i cry every night with the thought of my parents yelling at me eery second...i cant take it anymore...i give up..i gave up a long time ago...trying to regain my selfesteem just isnt working ive tried to be happy and just cant seem to find hapiness...and then my parents ask me whats wrong...they favor my little brother way to much...hes gets in trouble everyday at school and they dont do shit about it and if i didnt do the fucking dishes i would get grounded and wouldnt be able to do anything...then my softball coach said were having batting cages today and its not mandatory(you dont have to go) but my dad is making mego anyway and its only going to be me and the caoch instead of going to the football game..whatever and my parents are worried about my eating habits once again..my parents just dont know how much they hurt me as i sit here trying to finish this entry while crying..ugh i hate everything...especially me

Im never gonna be good enough
Im never gonna be beautiful
Im never going to be happy

::die young save yourself::

2004-09-19T04:33:40Z

aww friday was so fun i loved it...it was a really good day..at the football gamei got to see all my friends and i got to see my best friend and my boyfriend chris..god he makes me feel so good about my self like i feel so comfortable around him i dont care what i do or what i wear or what i look like cuz i know thta he will still love me for me..i dotn have to be perfect.but you know i try to be around him..but its the imperfections that make being in love worht the while because if you were perfect it would be boring.so yeah sorry guys..lol

but how do you like my new backround...leave a comment!!

SOCCER OMG! we kicked butt today! we won 2-0 yeahhh were good and then tomarrow 2 softball games...joy! then i get to see chris!! bbq aw im excited...i love hanging out with him. but okay im done! haha

loves

<3

*jd;iufj;ISFN;c*

chris143

Tonight won't make a difference.

2004-09-17T13:47:32Z

awww its friday im so happy cuz i hate shcool. godd but yeah whatever that doesnt matter but this weekend im busyyy geez on friday me and sara are going to the football and then saturday i have a soccer game at 8 holy crap...and then sunday 2 softball games at 9 and 11 double header then after that im going to chris' house for a bbq! woot woot

so my weekend will be wonderful

Yo encantada mi el novio

translation:i love my boyfriend<3

*bvfjbnvcuizdsgf;af*

Comment?

*jessiica

jessisbest57 @ 2004-09-15T16:31:00

2004-09-15T23:40:06Z

chelsea got beat up...awww its a wonderful thing...if you support chelsea getting beat up leave a comment haha

anyway besides that every thing is swell yeah school is going good and chris is going great

on saturday i had a soccer gameand we tied but soem girl had a heat stroke..shoot player

sunday i had 2 softball games and we won both of them...wow are team is pretty good..and i got an infield home run which was pretty cool and yeah

aww spring is too cute i jsut love her...spring i love u girl..ha

taking back sunday october 24th at soma...ahh its a beautiful thing

*jl./safj'ie*

christopher todd herrera<3

jessisbest57 @ 2004-09-10T23:03:00

2004-09-11T06:11:15Z

::10 months and counting::

ugh just when i though tmy life was at a turning point for the good...everything goes right back to the worse.

i like it better when you smile.

<3

*yrgfhbvuyr*

i love my cutie freaken boyfriend

Anyone will do tonight.

2004-09-10T22:02:56Z

hey i havnt wrote in like a week so im writing...man highschool is going by really fast next thing you know i will be graduating but hey skip this stuff lol this week was good i have pretty good grades and im excited and yeah today is 10 months for me and chris...wow....im really happy..but yeah tuesday was really hot wehad soccer practice and me and erica were juggling and this huge swarm of bees went right threw us!!!it was so freaken scary holy crap...wednesday i had softball which was kinda boring but i fell it was really funyn but i haev a huge bruise on my hip and i couldnt see cuz i didnt have my contacts in errr then thursday i had soccer again it was seriously so hot i was about to passout and the weird thing is there was only 7 people who showed up out of our 17 people...funny isnt it.i think its kinda gay how people sign up to play and they are commited to a sport and they dont go to practice for some lame excuse like..."im going jons game so im not going to practice" or "its too hot" yeah whatever..anyway and todays friday thank god i need a break from school i hate school it suck major butthole today was alrite but me and chris got in a silly little fight but it was big enough to make me cry..pathetic i know but oyu know how people say...No guy is worth your tears & when you find one that is, he won't make you cry. thats not true because chris is worth every little tear that comes out of my eye...anyway i really do love him whether you care or not i know some people dont like him but i really dont give a fuck...i hate how some people say your boyfriend is stupid and im just like whatever and thinking you dont know him like i do his other side...but whatever fuck you guys,...okay enough with the negative stuff..i have a soccer game come if youd like its at 10:00 at tds be there or be square....also taking back sunday october 14th at soma also playing with fallout boy and matchbook romance go! hopefully i can..i better or im gonna friking cry ahhhh i love napolean dynomite hes so FUCKING hot...sorry excuse my language k well ill write laterrr love you guys bye

*sdfh;deiqfho;*

i love christopher todd herrera

-jessica

jessisbest57 @ 2004-09-10T14:47:00

2004-09-10T22:02:51Z

*sdfh;deiqfho;*

i love christopher todd herrera

-jessica

jessisbest57 @ 2004-09-05T14:35:00

2004-09-05T21:43:07Z

hey...yesterday was really fun i got to hnag out with my lover...aww yay lol we went to the movies and saw napolean dynomite omfg it was the greatest movie ive ever seen..i love it so much its the funniest movie ever holy frikkin crap!"what are you going to do today napolean?" "whatever i want to do okayy" lmfao it was so fucking funny lmfao okkayyy lol haha okay then after thatt we went and got coldstones like always haha...then we waited for my mom to come pick us up omfg this black punched soem guy in the face i was like awww how sad !! hes was like 5-4-3-2-1 BAP! and frikkin punched the crap outa him and left with his homies haha yeah then after that we took chris home then we went to the races to pick up my dad and brotherrr so yeah then i came home and slept...then the next day i had softball practice at 1030 omfg it was hotter then hell..and it seemed like i was the only one trying? kind of fucking dumb but whatever thats their busniess...then i cmae home my dad threw me in the pool in all my stuff grrrrr...oh ya! i got a slurpee today!!!!! woot woot...anyway haha um i took a shower then i had to clean for like 10 hours...greattttt...then here i am waiting for idk....im bored tho...maybe ill write later im deciding i wanna do soemthing today...um anyone want to come0over?? call me k...well i love you guys!!!!

jlkhsdFUI;Sf

christopher todd herrera <3

*jess

jessisbest57 @ 2004-09-04T13:37:00

2004-09-04T20:50:32Z

Man highschool sucks really bad.Its not the homework or getting picked on.Its all the frikin drama.There is so much more jsut when you thought highschool was gonna be so different from middle school it isnt.You thought everyone was going to be so mature and out of those gay fighting days but the really arent.Anyway all this drama is making me very angry and i havnt been myself lately at all.Ive been a huge mean person..thats not who i want to be.I want to be nice and friednly to everyone but i cant do that when everyone else is bitching at me.And when i try smiling at people or sayign hi to them they jsut give me a look saying what do you want? im like geez okay...enough with the damn drama i have a lot of it already in my life.But yeah aww i love courtney and jenn and erica and renda and sara and amanda and britani...i just love them.I need to hang out with my old friends more...they were the ones who were always there for me and i havnt always been there for them.I need to shape up.Sorry.

God..spanish is so gay i hate it its so annoying like seriosuly i have the worst memory ever like if i study a word for like 5 minutes then i go to the next word i will already forget what it means....grrr maybe i need a tutor?

Geography...how sad i dont even know what it means..but its cool becuase chris sits behind me and secretly plays with my hair..aww how cute

AG the best class ever holy crap mr walkre i swear is the cutest grandpa i have ever seen in my entire life...omfg...."walkers the name farmers the game" omfg how cute is he!he castrates sheep by using his teeth...ewwww...oh well he is still the cutest darn thing ever

English....gay gay gay gay gay oh and gay gay gay gay GAY i hate english only because i am not a good writer lol oh well its cool cuz spring shannon and danielle are in it with me

Math...god mason sits behind me and he always draws all over me and makes fun of my size 5 and a half feet...how sad i cant help it if im un-porporttioned haha big word for a blonde like me ha

PE tiiight pe is cool kind of we are playing volleyball im not very good but we did swim on friday and this kid asked me if i was a model and i was liek what are you reatarded?

anyway....i love eveyrone dont forget it...

my love life is great

chris....;jdsnfleghtrb

i lvoe you is what im tryign to say

*jessicaaa

you'll always have my hand to holdY

2004-09-04T19:24:27Z

hey everyone...um yeah schools gay always gay...but ive been really busy lately i have soccer tuesday and thurs and softball tues and fri..grr oh well im starting to get in the swing of things.But this weekend will hopefully be fun..well it should be cuz chris' parents are out of town if you know what i mean lol anywayyyyyyyyy lol friday i had softball and then after i went to the football game all in my outfit haha what a reatrdlol but i got to see my baby so everything is okay...but ive been really mean lately to my good friends and im sorry to everyone ive been a bitch to..okay enough..im bored someone call me...i love chris
*jessica

I won't live in all your mistakes.

jessisbest57 @ 2004-09-03T15:28:00

2004-09-03T22:40:40Z

spare me the drama. i already have enough.

Im just giving it all away...

2004-08-31T00:50:04Z

hey kids...sry i havnt wrote in like a thousand years but we finally redid my room...and i haeva double bed....you know what that means...owwww Chris haha well yeah its cheetah it sets the mood haha well last weekend i went camping and i brought erica along and we were kinda bored until saturday night when we hung out with a buncha ppl are ages it was sooo tight haha you know erica...well yeah anyway besies that fun fucking party shitt um it was kinda gay till my bro caught this frikikin manta ray thing and it fucking stung my dad lmfao shoot it was funny...yeah then later umm me and erica hung out for a bit and tried deciding what i was going to wear to school...but yeah highschool is pretty cool so far i already got in trouble for my frikkin clothing.."dress code violatuion" how gay i see frikkin fat girls who have their rolls hang out and do they get in trouble...um no...friikin gay but w.e they only pick on the skinny girls haha jk btu yeah well after me and erica hung out chris came over for a bit and we went swimming...then went to dairy queen it was great! yeah then took a long ass shower watch the movie HOOK then went to bed...very excting well im gonan go i love you all...i love chris more tho....bye
-jessica

ps....i miss ashley...

Jesus, I'm ready to come home.

2004-08-20T05:10:49Z

TO PLAY, PUT AN (_) IN FRONT OF THE THINGS THAT YOU HAVE NEVER DONE BEFORE AND A (X) ON THE THINGS THAT YOU HAVE DONE AT LEAST ONCE.

(x) been drunk
(x) smoked pot
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex
(_, only a peck lol) kissed a member of the same sex
(_) crashed a friend's car
(_) been to japan
(x) ridden in a taxi
(x) been in love
(_) had sex
(_) had sex in public
(x) been dumped
(_) shoplifted
(_) been fired
(_) been in a fist fight
(_) had a threesome
(_) snuck out of my parent's house
(_) been caught masturbating
(_) peed on myself (have you ever been a baby wearing diapers)
(_) had sex with a member of the same sex
(_) been arrested
(x) made out with a stranger
(_) celebrated new years in time square
(_)gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(_) had a crush on a teacher
(_) celebrated Mardi-gras in new Orleans
(_) been to Europe
(_) skipped school
(_) slept with a co-worker
(x) cut myself on purpose
(_) had sex at the office
(_) been married
(_) gotten divorced
(_) had children
(_) lash out irrationally
(x) went to the movies just to make out in the back row
(_) fooled around with a stripper to entertain people at a party
(_) wondered what my sister looks like naked
(x) stayed on the phone all night
(x) pulled an all-nighter 2 nights in a row
(_) Called someone a racial term
(_) Gave a lapdance
(_) Smoked crack
(_) watched a porn
(_) Hooked up with a friend's boyfriend/girlfriend
(_) Went to work still drunk from the night before (school)
(_) Made a "home video"
(_) had a bat mitzvah
(x) cheated (on a quiz! not a person)
(_) eaten a chicken sandwich from Jack in the Box
(_) Stabbed someone in the face with a soldering iron
(_) hopscotched to vanilla ice on mars while drinking a corona
(_) made out with twins
(x)told someone to go to hell!!
(_)done a major drug
(_) made out with a member of the same sex to turn someone else on
(_) cheated on your girlfriend or boyfriend
(_) done something sexual with your friends family member
(_) took ballet
(x) dressed up like a princess
(_) done something while having sex that some people would find weird but it turned you on
(_) done something while having sex that you werent into but your partner was
(_) worked as a striper

thats awsome...okay yeah but today was okay i guess lol um i went to EC to get my schedule with sara and we have ag together yay!!!and then we saw tj and scott so they showed us where are classes are so we dont get lost..haha then went home sat all day then went to soccer practice..i hurt my foot...it is swolllen and has a bruise on it and yeah then im here so yeah...um...love you guys ill write laterrr

i love chris

*JESSICA*

Theres a million reasons why I cry.

2004-08-18T15:09:15Z

hey hey..i havnt wrote in a couple days buy nothing is new really...besides we are redoing my room and it liek torn aprat so i have nothing in my room besides a bed a stnd for my TV and a computer and radio how exciting haha this morning was gay cuz my dad woke me up at 6:30 and i couldnt go back to bed which sucks but im watching the olimpics and its the USA vs Canada in softball..its so awsome shoot jennie finch is so fast(picther)its crazy but yeah anyway the score is 4-0 so far..okay im proabably boring you but i get my new furniture today!!so i can finally put all my crap back in my room..haha it was all sotred in the livign room whata mess but yeah okay love you guys !ill write later ifi remember bye!!
*JESSICA*

Don't walk away.

2004-08-15T23:37:38Z

hey everyone...sorry i havnt wrote in like 10 years again lol but yeah i got contacts!!!!!!im so excited...but its a pain in the ass to put them in it takes like 30 minutes hahaha and i have such little eyes which makes it harder...haha i finally went school shopping im so excited for the new year...this year im gonna actually try...i mean like od my homework you should be proud of me but anyway on friday i went to the movies with chris it was fun .....lol....anyway we saw the little black book...it was cute!but yeah anyway...tj is a crazy driver haha then saturday um i went shopping again...then i went to kips later that night it was cool i saw jenna brown,...and yeah well i was so glad i didnt see elephant man...or i would shit myself...oh god.. haha well yeah then today i woke up at 1030 cuz chris called to see if i wanted to go to the beach but i couldnt go...then later i went shopping for my room im doing cheetah im excited woot woto!my furniture comes wednesday so we gotta paint and take everything out !its gonna be so ahrd holy shit,...oh well wel im gonna go i might be going to saras house or she might be coming over well talk to you laterrrrr love ya!

chris<3

*JESSICA*

Go on and say it you need me like a bad habit.

2004-08-12T05:55:35Z

heyyy today was fun i woke up at 1 haha chris woke me up but its okay haha but yeah um i went swimming today cuz it was friggin hot especially after a little jog around the neighborhood shoooot but yeah today was orientation it was fun cuz i got to see chris...i got my schedule its...

1-spanish-muniozgure
2-geography-storm
3-Ag-walker
4-english-vandervort
5-algebra-lieberknecht
6-PE-russel

well yeah im gonna go do my daily rourtine....*richard simmons* haha and work out with my 3 pound weights haha dont mess with me shooot all knock you out...but yeah anywya i love you all bye!!
*JESSICA*

When im in the dark and all alone
Dreaming that you'll walk right through my door,
Its then i know my heart is whole
Theres a million reasons why i cry
Hold my covers tight and close my eyes
Cuz i dont wanna be alone
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you, I need you..

You have my heels over head.

2004-08-11T04:29:19Z

hey .....today was great um i hung out with renda and erica we swam all day and then i went to soccer practice!hehe i got a slurpee today im excited they are good...hehe..i kinda dont know what to say..lol..but ya tasha made my journal cute!hehe thanks tasha!! hehe i miss sara shes in vegas..i freaken love that girl!!

Here, here i am again, And im starin at these same four walls Alone again, And now, all the colors blend And im growing numb and I've become, This empty page

Hold on, its tragic
Stumbling through all this static

Stick around, Im not the kinda girl you wanna leave.You'll see, Love me for me.

2004-08-10T03:19:10Z

Hey kids!today was greta i hung out with renda and we fought haha it was tiiight i kicked her little punk ass lmfao haha then it was so funny she was playing with my bulletion board and she was laying on my bed and it totalyl fell on her it was the funniest thing ever and then she left later on and then erica cam over and it was so0o0o freaken funny me and erica were throwing kethcup packets at each other anfd we were tlkaing baout how funny it owuld be if it exploded and omfg she threw it so hard at my butt and it exploaded all of the freaken walls....holy shit i almost peed myself!omggggggg ya today was really funyn but yeah renda is coming over again shes been over everyday since friday lmfao...well ya her and erica are spending the night its going to be so fun but yeah ill probably right later and yes.well i love christopherrrrrrrrrr<333

Love me for me<3

jessisbest57 @ 2004-08-07T22:46:00

2004-08-08T05:48:25Z

hey everyone!today was fun but i had to go through everything to know what tog et when we go school shopping but yeah anyways then after renda cmae over then we were really bored so we walked to 7-11 which was very hot!then later i went to christophers house and hung out there for a little family gathering type thing...i met all his relatives well a lot of them...they are very nice and friendly..but yeah..we played this game called boshie?? haha its where you try to hit the little ball with a big ball and i was on his uncles team and we lost cuz i suck haha oh well but yeah it was fun just spending time with him cuz you know hes grounded which sucks..but im excited for school ill get to see all my friends!yay!but yeah anyway ill tlak to you guys later!luv you! i lvoe my baby!
*JESSICA*

nada

2004-08-06T20:32:03Z

hey everyone!sorry i havnt wrote in like 10 years!but i havnt done liek anything this whole summer....summer sucks asshole.well yeah all ive done is watch my brother gone to hawaii and thats about it liek the only highlight was when i got to hang out with chris and do richard simmons.lmao. richard simmons is hot dont you agree?i might be going to vegas on sunday with sara dublerrrrr shes freaken great.but if i go i dont get nay school clothes...wtf is up with that?but yeah tonight i might be going to the movies with renda....we might see the notebook adn cry togetherrrr...but ive already seen it well kinda sorta not really...i was with chris haha so yeah anyway im such a lazy bum.yesterday i woke up at 1:11 thats freaken crazy shinto.so yeah maybe ill right later tongiht!luv you all!
i love christopher todd herrerA

*JESSICA*